Will I fit? Will I fit….into a physical space, a psychological space, a societal space, and if I don’t, why not? Am I more than my fat body? Am I seen beyond my body? These questions haunt me throughout every day as a fat woman. I often feel both invisible and hyper-visible simultaneously. Contemporary culture criticizes the fat woman and limits where she is allowed to exist. My work challenges the idea that fatness defines the individual, and confronts the validity of body standards.
While the paintings are self-portraits, the lack of identifiable features strips me of my identity to suggest that society uses my fatness to dehumanize me. My hands interact with the amorphous fat figures gripping and squeezing the flesh, trying to keep the forms contained while forcing the viewer to confront my fatness.
I will Fit.
I am seen.
I am more than my fat body.